Member Blog Post

I just want to dissapear for a while. I dont want to play the game of life today. It's no fun and i feel like shit. My brain wont shut up, and i cant stand all the thoughts in my head. I dont want to think anymore. Perhaps i'm just feeling sorry for myself today. God knows it happens on occasion. But maybe i just need a break from holding it all together. From everyone and everything for a little while. And i'm mad that i'm not totally well. I'm tired of being in pain, and i'm tired of it interfering with my life. And i'm especially tired of not being able to change it. I have the chance to make a few hundred $ in a few days cleaning a vacant house, and i'm going to do it, but by the time i'm done i know i'll be a cripple practically. I think i need to buy another bottle of wine. Definetly feeling like i'm going to need it.