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wow what a girl, how complete she makes me, in everyway she seems so perfect she holds the beast inside of me,

love would not be my favorite four letter word without her. a heart or a cmt dose not describe my feelings i dont know if there is anything that can. never have i been in love with someone better. laura smith is my high school sweetheart my everything. when im old i wont remember the things i do in high school, i wont remember wrestling all i will remember is her smile and all the great memories we had. i now see that mistakes were made and i could ask god over and over and over if i can fix them. butthats not up to god that is up to laura smith. only she can have the power to take me back. mistakes were made and feelings were hurt. ive never stoped thinking about it ever scence it happend..  i cant stop regreting all the times that me and this angel from heaven faught.. she is the person that i need in my life she is the person that can turn everything around for me. 

But as you can see i do have my regrets and i do have my problems. but know more! i am willing to devote my life to her and to care for her as much as possable, to follow her dreams and to do everything in my power to make them come true. to live in new york, to help her with school to do all that she always wanted to do. some might call me obsessed but no, im the complete obacite im the person that cares for another. im the persont that will drop everything, im the persont that will go back in time and change all the mistakes that i have made. im the person that gave her the promiss ring with all the intentions to marry her and to live a life with her and her alone. she is always on my mind and i do not want to get away. the thought of me and her in my dream of us not getting back together hurts me and keeps me from sleeping at night, keeps me from  doing school work... my love for her is something that mankind has never seen, a true love that only exists in poems, a love that will never die.

i feel so  much for laura smith and i always will, after a relationship of 3 years i will always remember her and all the good times and the lessions learned. ever scence she has left the world has not been kind to me, luck has not shined on me. my heart keeps takeing blow after blow.. and its hard for me to take much more. im still here today only for the possablitty of us being together.. my heart is a soild block of the coldest ice, and only her love can melt it. laura i love you so much and im sooo sorry for hurting you... if you give me one chance just one chance i will do everything in my power to reserect are feelings. we can start all over, from the beg, we can build a new bace. i remember telling you in the beg of are relationship that we needed to build a strong bace in order to make it. we didnt make it because there was a bit of a flaw but that flaw can be fixed all at the price of one chance. just one is all im going to need to make us, US again. me and all the other people that have always supported us will be happy for us. they will be happy the old doug is back and he is happy once more.

 showlin monks spend there whole life trying to acheive nirvanna, i already have with you. and if i have to spend my whloe life to get to feel that happyness again then so be it. i will do anything to make you happy and for us to be together again.

laura i love you and i always will, even if you dont deel the same for me.. all are pictures together all are love and memorys that we have sharred, all all lessions we have learned will never be forgotten.

My Love For you is forever.....

my band Biolanthuim is recording a song for you..  the songs called laura.. 

once again im sorry for everything, im sorry for hurting you babie... you truely are my world and my happyness that i want to share with everyone. I WANT THE WORLD TO KNOW... that i love laura smith

ME AND LAURA, I REAKIN WE ERR CUTE