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Diary, Day #1. Well, I'm finally starting to write something in this stupid thing, but I'm not quite sure how to start it. Maybe its because I have no need for this thing but the fucking doc keeps sayin "Write in it will, write in it will", Write in iiitt, uhhh shut the fuck up already. So yeah, cool, I'm done. 

Diary, Day #2. Here we go again. I guess I'm kinda feeling a little ignorant about the last entry. Kinda.. I just dont know what to say. Uhh, ok fine howard, get your head into this. 
So my name is howard if you didn't get it already. 17 years old and bored outta my fucking mindddd! I need to go home already even though mommy and daddy would probably try to kick me out the minute I got home. Fuck'em. I dont even wanna go home really, I just wanna get outta this place.. Its sooo waack. Yeah, that was good enough of an entry doc. Hope your reading this..

Diary, Day #3 Man, can you believe the shit they serve here. I'd take eating Mcdonalds over this tofu burger shit anyday. Ya know, even though Mcdonalds is for complete fatasses. Anyways, I thought about her again today. Oh, if you dont know, I kinda have a crush on the janitor here. Yeah, she wants me, I can tell by the way she cleans up my messes. Sooo hoot. Haha, no no I'm joking of course. I've been thinking of my girl. God, do I miss her. Not sure if I enjoyed the sex or the fact that it seemed like she was the only person that cared at the time. Hmm.. probably the sex. Oh howard, your such a babe magnet.

Diary, Day #7I hate it. I hate it, I hate it, I HATEEE IITT! They have the nerve to call me strange like I'm some sort of monster. HAHA, they must be outta there god damn mind. Pardon me for sayin something bad about you dad jesus. He's been a big help. God, I need a beer.

Diary, Day#15 Haven't really been to focused on talking to you as of lately. I've been in some biggg trouble. Doc says I'm suffering from delusions and other mental problem bullshit, but I know he's just trying to get inside my head like all the others before him. He cant phase me. Besides that, I feel like I have to get something off my chest. I really miss my girl. So much.. so much. I just wanna get outta here and ya know, mate with her. Over and over and over again.

Diary, Day#17 I did something despicable today. I couldn't help it, he called me strange. 

Diary, Day#20 People have been looking at me so much like I'm a fucking freak! I'm not a freak. Howard, you are not a freak. They just keeping on staring and staring and staring at me. Hell, sometimes I feel like their staring at me through the walls. NO, I know it! Next time somebody stares at me wrong.. I'll hurt them.

Diary, Day#23 I'm so tired. I'm so miserable. Nothing matter. I hate you whoever's reading this. I wanna kill you. Your going to die. Enjoy reading that doc.
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Diary, Day #30 I'm just so despicable today, aren't I? I feel like I can just read what everybody around me is saying inside there head like I am one with them. I feel strange today.. god help me. 

Diary, Day#31 Doc said I was crazy.. he wont be sayin that anymore. It was absolutely glorious! I think he said something about me being crazy before I gutted him like a fucking animal. Ahhh, if only she was there. She would have loved it.
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Diary, Day#100 Look at me you mother fuckers. I am god and the devil. Sayin I have a problems and that I'm "Strannngeeee"? Perhaps I am a bit "Strange". Ya know whats funny? I dont even remember being anywhere but here. Where is here you say? Oh, you know. That one place where you are forever trapped. My own hell.. I seem to remember now. Where am I, I mean. I'm just here.. like the rest of you poor, worthless morons. I am.. stranngee. 

Doctors note,
I've been on Howards case since the beginning. For some reason or another, he believes that his family had kicked him out and that he had a long term relationship with a women. This is all false information. Howard's family has been deceased for over a decade due to his murders, and when I ask him the name of this particular women he speaks of, he denies me her name. His diary entries have also become violent, erratic, and in his latest entry, disturbing. He has managed to kill 8 people, including a fellow doctor in our humble facility.. and we can't have that anymore. I've done everything I can for the poor monster and quite frankly, I have lost all faith. I am sending him back to they mental asylum. 

One more thing.. he keeps saying he's strange. Possible lead? I dont know, nobody has ever called him strange here. Please take him away now.

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(Thanks for reading this  Kinda my first story I've ever written so be soft on me foo's! Oh, and be sure to give me some "Fear" topics to talk about. Whatever scares you, just comment) 

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