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Today has been the suckiest day ive had, im being taunted every time i go outside, what did i do to deserve all this pain? did i do somthing wrong? what makes everyone want to turn away from me? I want friends, i really do, but no one hangs with the emo person who cuts themselves. Cant somone see that im just trying to cope with this B.S i face on a daily basis? im not the person they think i am, im not dark and satanic, i am capable of loving. I made a promise to myself today, i would stand up for myself, maybe kick some ass if i must, i dont want to but i fear theres no other way. im gonna quote a song, dont judge me for doing so " im trapped inside this cage tonight! you torture my brain with blades and knives!" i hear this in my mind everytime im teased, beaten up, cursed at, im a chick with low self-esteem i cant take this torture, i only bear it for i know i have somthing i have to live for, somthing i have devoted my life to.