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Hiya Ya'll!!! As some of you might have noticed I have been M.I.A for awhile....for some of you that don't know, my mum has stage-4 breast cancer. For the past few months we have been callin' the hospital home...I never left...She has had breast cancer for about a bit over 2 years now...close to three... it started off at a stage-2, now just recently it spread quickly and due to that, it turned into a stage-4...which is the last stage of her type of breast cancer...she doesn't have much time left, maybe a year max...according to what the docs say...they said she has an 8%chance to live for a year due to how fast it is spreading throughout her body;yet I believe she will be around longer than that, my mother is a very strong women...so I just have everyday with her as if it is her last, I hold on to every small moment for as long as I can. I had already lost my father several years back, therefore I know that pain of losing a parent...he past from HIV/AIDS...so to everyone and anyone whom is reading this and has a family member or friend or whom is in a similar situation or to anyone whom has lost a loved one, these words that I state here,are for you!!!...just reading these {some of my own writings and some from others of which I've added my own touch to} have helped me and/or gotten me through the day when I felt a bit lost...

"Live as if this day is your last, Live as if later never exists, Dream as if you'll live forever, Remember as if you will never forget, Love as if you have never been hurt, Sing as if no one is listening, Dance like no one is watching, Laugh your loudest and Laugh as if the joy will never cease, Find the beauty in all things-- Everything --;then look deeply within it as if it will be your last chance to see, and Live each second as if its your final moment, be Free"

"There are a million ways to lose a day, but not even a single way to get one back."

"I miss you when something really good happens because you are the one I want to share it with, I miss you when something is troubling me because you are the one who understands me so well, I miss you when I laugh and when I cry because I know that you are the one that makes my laughter grow and my tears dissappear, I miss you all the time but I miss you most when I lay awake at night and think of all the wonderful times we spent with each other; for those were some of the best times of my life"

"I held a moment in my hand, brillant as a star, as fragile as a flower, a tiny sliver of one hour. I dripped it carelessly, Ah! I didn't know...of what I held back then, I had held opportunity."

"You will never find time for anything. If you want time, you must make it"

"I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the things I want to say, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read and all the friends I want to see"

"Men talk of killing time, while time quietly kills them."

"Life is not lost by dying; Life is lost minute by minute, day by dragging day, in all of the thousands of small uncaring ways"

"For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin--real, actual life itself. Yet-- there always seemed to be some type of obstacle in my way...Something of which I had to get through first, some type of unfinshed business, a time still to be served, some old forgotten debt to be paid. Always something in my way, as I act more and I think less. Then, I sigh, my life could begin. So much wasted time had past, before at last, it had dawned on me, that-- these so-called obstacles, were my life."

"Fear not that life shall come to an end, but rather fear that it shall never have a beginning"

"When you were born, you cried and the world rejoiced. Live your life in such a mannar that when you die it is the world that cries and it is you whom rejoices."

"Remember that lost time is never found again and that every second is of infinite value."

I might add some more pieces or writing/poems at some point but for now I'll leave it at that....anyways, I am so glad to finally, really be at home and back on this site. I cannot put into words how much this site and the people here have helped me. I LOVE this site, I LOVE this community, and I LOVE all of the people on here whom I call my friends...I have received so much support here and uncondistional friendship and love...I truely, honestly don't know were or how I'd be without this site and our lovely horror-freak-lover community...so I must give an extreme thank you to the makers/founders of this site and more thank yous and much love to everyone on here. You guys have helped me so much and again, given me so much support...I love all of you guys!

Now, here's my about me!!!:
I love film. I plan to become some big diretcor someday... I've been writting screenplay's for over the past seven years as well as working in the film/ a-v industry. I've worked in both pre and post production...you name it, I've done it...from directing, editing, lighting, audio, studio work, shooting{being a cameramen}, to doing live shoots, concerts, political shoots {I worked with a public access company for years and we covered the '04 DNC} I love doing film and video production...without it I have no clue were I would be or who I would be;I've made numerous short films, a few that even have won awards. I'm currently writting a full-length feature. The piece as a whole, the story itself, is finshed...I'm just in my editing phase. It's about addiction. Once this one is 100% finished I will be working on a horror piece. In a nutshell, Film Is My Life!!!

I'm a very blunt and direct person...sometimes to the point that it gets me in trouble, I kinda don't think before I speak...and I have no filter. I'm a huge geek! I'm a wicked history buff, I could have a wonderful day just chillin', bein' a couch potato with the history channel or national geographic. I'm also a big book-worm...I love both fiction and non-fiction. My favorite topic as reading goes is non-fictions on serial killers...one of my favorite books of all time on that subject is, "The A to Z Encyclopedia of Serial Killers." One of the most badass books of all time on it!!! I suggest it to everyone on this site, a very much MUST READ!!!!

Besides film, my other love is music,yet at the very top WAS my ex-husband James. ( We went through a divorce, which is a reason why I havent been on here. The separation was beyond difficult for the both of us yet we are better off- its true when they say if you really love someone that you must let them go}. We were married for four years. Without him...I don't know where I'd be right now...when I met him I was in a very dark place...he pulled me out of it, he saved my life and same as I to him. My so-called "family", my "blood" I haven't spoken to since my father past, he was the backbone of the family. So, once my mother got sick it was very hard...since for forever it has just been only myself and my mother. The day she got the diagnosis, I moved back in with her, quit my job,to make sure that she is fully taken care of and have been doing so since.

Currently, I live in Boston...born and raised! Music is another passion of mine. I don't have a particular genre...I love a bit of everything... {Not Listed In Order...yet... with my type of love for music, there is no "one is better than another" type-of-deal either}...from...

{Ya'll can skim this...there's a lot here! lol}</p><p>&nbsp;The Doors, Silverchair {Oldschool Only}, Alice In Chains{NONE of the new shit...without Layne they will never be the same}, Billy Hoilday, Slipknot, KoRn {oldschool only}, Led Zeppelin, Buddy Guy, Incubus{only with Dirk Lance, therefore everything after 'Morning View' was horriable.}, Lady GaGa, The Blood Brothers, Godsmack, Jerry Lee Lewis, Metallica, Cher, Judas Priest, Bush, Stoned Temple Pilots, The Four Tops, Radiohead, She Wants Revenge, Institute, Beethovan, Mozart, Janis Joplin, The Toadies, Wu Tang Clan, Gin Blossims, Pink Floyd, Queen, Garbage, Seether, Miles Davis, Nirvana, Amanda Palmer, Qunicy Jones, Mad Season, Portishead, Kittie{oldschool only}, Seal, C.K.Y, Tyrese, David Garrett, Soundgarden, Musiq SoulChild, Days Of The New, Five Finger Death Punch, Ray Charles, System Of A Down, Nat King Cole, Muse, Britney Spears, The Drifters, Deftones{oldschool...very few new stuff}, No Doubt, The Platters, Killswitch Engage, Matchbox 20{oldschool only}, Method Man, Skinny Puppy, HIM {oldschool only IDK what the hell there doing now...but there label shoulda dropped them the second that horriable new single was written...its just bad man.} Paramore, The Supremes, Big Dumb Face, Eminem, Tina Turner, Pantera, Down, Depeche Mode, Placebo, Disturbed, Chevelle, Jackie Wilson, Audioslave, Tamia, Weezer, Smokey Robinson, Tool,&nbsp;Coheed&amp;Cambria, A Perfect Circle, Heart, Fiona Apple, Cold, Queens of the Stone Age, Green Day{mostly oldschool}, The Velvet&nbsp;Underground, Boy Hits Car, Lou Reed, Orgy{only oldschool...that new album*sighs then shakes head in embarrassment for them*}, Blind Melon, Tori Amos, Static-X, Billy Joel, Whitney Houston, Bruce Springsteen and the E Street Band, Nine Inch Nails, David Bowie,Pearl Jam, Beyonce, 30 Seconds To Mars, Beastie Boys, Sublime, Audiovent, The Dresden Dolls, The Scorpions, Journey, Screaming Trees, The Damning Well, Candlebox, Oasis, From First To Last{ with Sonny only}, The Used, R.E.M, The Cure{oldschool only}, The Wallflowers, Creed, The Offspring, Temple of the Dog, Box Car Racer, Limp Bizkit {I'm a huge Wes BorlandFan!!}...umm... Normally, I really could go on and on with this for hours...yet at this point my brain is fried...I just can't think about anyone else for music at this moment...

SPECIES
I'm an american made female homosapien featuring vital organs, muscles, tissues, veins and nerves which are given the breath of life from a heathly dose of A-postive! And all of which is surround by bones and connected by skin.

LOCATION
I'm on planet X and coming to destroy you ALL! MWHA HA HA HA HA!.....no, seriously I'm born and rasied in Boston.

FAVORITE MOVIES
Really? This question is asked on this site? I believe it's farily obvious...lol, just kiddin'....Umm, to make it easier I'll just name directors. Kurbrick, Barker, Zombie, Bousman, Arofnosky, Takashi, Sorcesse, Raimi, Craven, De Palma, Hitchcock, Roth, Tarentino, Aegento, Polanski, King {...to be continued}

FAVORITE TV SHOWS
Sons of Anarchy, Lost, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, 3rd Rock From The Sun, Always Sunny In Phillidelphia, Crimial Minds, Family Guy, South Park, Vampire Diaires, Hex, True Blood, United States of Tara, Rugrats {c'mon, ya'll know that rugrats are the shit lol},

SCARY STUFF
Parasites, People...lots of people, When the lights are on, My mother {She should be put on the very top of this list...but it sounds better as the last, in my head...idk}.I have to put this last thing on my page, a poem. One of, if not my favorite poem of all time by one of my favorite poets...if I was to even attempt to list them it would be as long as my list of music....LOL...so I'll just leave it be. I would guess that most of you know this one, yet if not and whomever reads this and likes it, look up more of his stuff. Now here's "Fire And Ice" by the one and only Robert Frost:

"Some say the world will end in fire, Some say ice. From what I've tasted of desire I hold with those who favor fire. But if it had to perish twice, I think I know enough of hate To say that for destruction ice</p><p>Is also great,And would suffice."